March 13, 2011

Loss, Fury, and Things I am Thankful For

The last 4 months of my life have been stressful….

Loss….

I’ve lost both my grandmothers to dementia/ Alzheimer’s since late October. I’ve dealt with family losses on my husband’s side of the family, but this is the first time on my side. They were both very old and ready to go, but I miss them.

Fury…

My momma bear has come out recently. I am dealing with a situation with my kids where they are facing a major relationship loss in their life – through no fault of their own and despite my best efforts. I am pretty easy going by nature, but if you mess with my kids then I can really get up in arms pretty fast. It is VERY frustrating to be so completely not in control of a situation, and I have expended a great deal of energy just trying to manage my kid’s hurt over this situation.

It is breaking my heart AND causing everything else in my life to feel like a big deal (even if it isn’t).

Bouncy Sites…

Most of my sites are perfectly stable and earning nice, steady money (thankfully) and the ones that aren’t… well they have been unstable for since before farmer – and I’m still trying to figure out why. The crazy thing is as long as I’ve been doing this business, I still find the bouncy nature of sites to be fairly stressful…. I usually have a higher tolerance for it, but right now every little thing seems difficult!!!

Not getting out my outsourcing product…

I apologize for this. I should have had it out 3 weeks ago – at least. I have the sales letter, and the product is done (and I am darn proud of it), but my graphics guy is in the middle east and I haven’t heard from him since the fighting started over there. I don’t have any idea what is going on, but I think I am just going to release it with version number one of the graphics (which I DON”T love), and hope that you can overlook the funky graphics, and forgive me for being late.

SO Thankful…

All that being said, I am TREMENDOUSLY thankful for the opportunity that I have because I have built an income with Internet Marketing. I get to be home after school with my kids – I haven’t worked a “real” job full time for almost 3 years now, and haven’t worked even part time outside of my business for a year and a half (holy camoly!).

I also have the best husband on the planet, and friends and family who really care about me.

Despite the stress, life is good.

To your success!

Heather

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